I think a lot about accepting where you are and who you are is realizing that it doesn’t have to be okay. A lot of things and experiences that we all go through are not okay and it’s important to both recognize that and give it space to be felt. We don’t live in a…… Continue reading A Thousand More Little Deaths
We are living in the end of times. It feels like it doesn’t it? I have half a mind to read Revelations to see what I should be looking out for. It’s something like half men, half horses on fire right? If you’ve ever been in a bad car accident you can understand how time…… Continue reading We Cannot Let the Cure be Worse than the Problem Itself.
I’m in the middle of a book called “Maybe You Should Talk to Someone” and it’s about a therapist who in turn, goes to therapy. In one section she mentions the reactions she gets from others when she says that she is a therapist and why people seem uncomfortable when they find out. It boils…… Continue reading Will You See the Human in My Being?
Or, in the alternative, things never fix themselves. It’s weird that when you take a personality test, you aren’t suppose to like the answer. Are we not supposed to like ourselves, or are we so sick of hearing ourselves think? We’re stuck right now in an endless political swell, a continuously crashing wave of horror…… Continue reading Things Don’t Stay Fixed
There’s a reason I never worry about him. I think leaving and leaving was the only way I could ever figure myself out (this is as if I purport to be a person who has figured themselves out). I think right now, this exact moment is the moment I get over my first love and…… Continue reading When You Meet Someone You Weren’t Ready For
I met them when I was 18. They were loud and they were laughing and they were everywhere. I think I loved them all immediately. I fell into a very intact group of friends who had known each other forever. I loved that about them, it was like opening a book to the middle…… Continue reading Dustland Fairytale
At my therapist’s office last week I was sitting cross legged on her couch with a deathly hallows pillow in my lap and I looked at her and said “I think I miss my depression.” This is the record-scratch-I’m-sorry-what moment. No one ever prepared me for what comes next after you slowly blink awake after years…… Continue reading Breaking Up With Depression
Let’s say that one more time: No one deserves the burden of completing you. I’ll be honest, I was watching a horror movie and one of the characters said that and I immediately paused the movie and took some time to wrap my mind around it. No one deserves the burden of completing you. Not…… Continue reading No One Deserves The Burden of Completing You.
Give everything to science or medicine. Donate everything you can. If there isn’t much that can be taken, I’m sorry. I ran parts of me hard, others not as much, like the sole of a shoe, rough and uneven. But please take all that you can. The rest of me should be burned and drowned,…… Continue reading If I die…
I was at the inaugural meeting of a book club a few weeks ago and I looked around and realized that almost everyone in the room was an attorney. I would be lying if I said it wasn’t still painful to hear other people who have accomplished my “dream” talk about boring things like depositions…… Continue reading A Thousand Little Deaths